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Even Death Unites Us

A Patient

by Terri Wingham, Cancer Survivor

 

Photos courtesy of Carolyn Taylor

Has my title scared you off yet? The topic of death, especially for anyone who has lived through hearing the words, “you have cancer” can make even the most resilient of us squirm in our chairs. With a chalky mouth and a thready pulse, we look for an exit from the room, the conversation, and the risk that one day we will wake up with an unexplained pain and a doctor will pull an x-ray out of its sterile envelope, slide it onto a lit surface, and show us a colony of little metastases hunkered down deep in our bones.

In some ways, the deluge of pink ribbons and announcements of bright and shiny 5-year survival statistics has lulled us (or maybe it’s just me) into a fairy tale land where we can almost convince ourselves that surgeons dressed in crisp scrubs and oncologists packing an arsenal of chemotherapy drugs will protect ALL of us from the risk of eventual death. But, if you heard the buzz on February 4th about World Cancer Day, you might know the truth: “More people die from cancer than from AIDS, malaria, and tuberculosis combined. Each year globally, 12.7 million people learn they have cancer, and 7.6 million people die from the disease. Even more alarming, the World Health Organization projects that without immediate action, the global number of deaths from cancer will increase by nearly 80% by 2030, with most occurring in low- and middle-income countries.”

 

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The Waiting Room

I know – intense information to read while sipping your morning coffee. Often I shield you (and maybe myself) from the darker side of the story. I find ways to inject humour and soften the edges of the harsh realities I sometimes experience while on the road. But when you look at Carolyn Taylor’s pictures included in this post, you can probably imagine the kind of intensity I have experienced while here in Ho Chi Minh (HCM) City. But, before your eyes glaze over and you click on the little x at the top of this post, in search of the latest news or celebrity gossip, stay with me…because today, I want to share with you a story about compassion and HOPE.

You might not know me, but maybe you can relate to my good friend and coping mechanism, DENIAL. Typically, I avoid thinking, reading or focusing on a world involving words like metastatic or palliative because of my *incredibly rational* logic that if I think too much about this terrifying world, the universe will hand me a one-way ticket into it.

CarolynTaylor3For any of you other avoid-thoughts-of-death-at-all-costs kind of people, maybe you can imagine the dueling butterflies in my stomach as I wove up a crumbling staircase, crowded with forty to fifty squatting people, in search of the first floor and office of Dr. Quach Thanh Khanh, Vice Director of the brand new Palliative Care Unit at HCM City Cancer Hospital. Looking every inch the only lost, white, foreigner in a Vietnamese hospital, I stared at the characters on the sign and tried to gauge whether I had arrived in the right place or not. Luckily, my cheap Nokia mobile phone buzzed and I saw Dr. Khanh waving at me through the crowd.

He led me through an onslaught of patients, caregivers, and nursing staff and then gestured for me to take a seat on one of the mismatched chairs scattered around the long boardroom table. The room, the heat, and the noise faded away as he asked about my story.  I told him about my Adventure of Hope and why I’m travelling around the world to volunteer on almost every continent.  Finally, after much prodding on my part, he also shared his story with me.

After eight years as a Radio-Oncologist, specializing in head and neck cancers, a chance meeting with an American palliative care doctor shifted the course of Dr. Khanh’s life forever.

As recently as a year ago, in hospitals across Vietnam, if an oncologist had exhausted all known treatments for a person, that patient was sent home to die with no drugs to manage the pain and no emotional support for either the patient or their caregivers. Now, after an intensive course in Palliative Care, Dr. Khanh and his team use Dr. Krakauer’s model to run the first Palliative Care Program in HCM City.

As we wrapped up our conversation about cancer survival rates, hospital policies around spiritual support, and the protocols of palliative care, Dr. Khanh paused to look down at the ground for a moment.

Women's Cervical Ward

Women’s Cervical Ward

When his eyes next met mine, he softly said, “I have a big dream too.”

The quiet intensity of his words and the hope shining in his eyes made my eyes fill and a lump form in my throat.

“What is your dream?” My voice trembled as I asked the question.

“I dream that one day, no cancer patient in HCM City will ever have to die in pain or to die alone.” His voice resonated with such conviction that I now had to bite down hard on my bottom lip in an attempt to reign in the tears threatening to tip over onto my cheeks.

His sincerity and dedication to alleviating the suffering of others inspired me more than I can articulate in this little post. For the next hour, I had the privilege of seeing the Palliative Program in action as we visited the home of a woman dying from metastatic breast cancer. Throughout our time with her, Dr. Khanh spoke to the patient (and her daughter) as if they were the only people who existed in the world. Even though I couldn’t understand the words, I did not feel even an ounce of pity in the exchange, but instead saw only genuine kinship and compassion. Even though Dr. Khanh will not save this woman’s life, he and his team will ensure she dies with dignity and in as little pain as possible. As I write these words, four days later, the screen blurs and I am still surprised by how much the feeling of connection and hope impacted me when I had braced myself to witness only sadness and fear.

CarolynTaylor4Unfortunately, the reality of cancer and palliative care hit even closer to home today when I heard the news about the passing of two of my favourite Breast Cancer Bloggers. Susan Niebur of Toddler Planet and Rachel Cheetham Moro of The Cancer Culture Chronicles both died this week and my inbox and my heart will never be the same. Both of these women shared their beautiful writing, their quick wit(s), and their truest selves with a large community of readers both inside and outside the cancer world.

As I witness the devastating effects of cancer both here in Vietnam and among my tight knit group of breast cancer friends, I can’t help but notice that even across different continents, languages, and cultures we are all united by our compassion for each other and by our grief.  Whether we come from Vietnam, or a city in North America or Europe, the sadness we experience over the loss of loved ones, our hope for a cancer-free future, and our desire to live meaningful lives, is universal..

The work of Dr. Khanh and the writings of Susan and Rachel will continue to touch the lives of so many people. I hope their stories inspire you to think about how you can live a life filled with even more compassion and purpose. I know, each of them will continue to inspire me.

 


 

Terri Wingham is a 32 year old breast cancer survivor from Vancouver, B.C.  She is also a friend, sister, aunt, daughter, niece, blogger, international volunteer, world traveller, storyteller, photographer, wine lover, post-wine booty shaker, writer, dreamer, and global connector. Terri is currently on a six month Volunteer Trip around the world where she is traveling to nearly every continent and volunteering with at least 7 different international volunteer partners. The information she gains will help her establish the framework for the Fresh Chapter Foundation, which will create opportunities for other cancer survivors to heal from cancer by volunteering internationally. To learn more or contribute to her Adventure of Hope, please click HERE or watch this VIDEO. The above post has been shared with permission from her blog, A Fresh Chapter.

 


 

CTaylorCarolyn Taylor is a photographer living in Westchester County, NY.  Carolyn has been shooting commercial advertising for the past 20 years and last year received a small business grant from British Airways – 10 business class flights to any destination that BA flies. It was a contest based on a series of essays that she wrote explaining how face to face travel could change her business and help it take a more photo journalistic path.  Carolyn’s essays talked about the fact that she is a survivor of ovarian and endometrial cancers, and how since she’s been sick, she’s been looking for an opportunity to travel around the world documenting photographically how people with cancer are intrinsically connected. Through her travels, Carolyn would like to portray how our struggles, hopes, joys, and concerns have no borders; that we share a common bond, regardless of where we live around the globe. Please visit her blog or watch this video where she has documented her journey over the past year.

 

 

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